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Welcome to my new blog "Scratch" !

Have you ever taken on something & then later wondered  why you did that ? 

If you have, you might identify with this blog which is essentially about exploring new things & starting from "Scratch". This is because having let go of all the pain & grief I have carried around with me for so many years, I was left with a big "hole" in my life where that grief once was. However I see this very much as a positive as it allows for new things & new possibilities to come into my life. So now I am actively starting to create a new & better me, who is not weighed down by all the troubles of the world, but one who is happy, curious & not afraid to try something new...... especially if it is fun !

So where to start ?

Whilst Grief Recovery & becoming a Specialist was a key turning point for me, this experience has taught me to never give up hope of a better way to feel. Consequently I have taken this quite literally to heart & started trying lots of new things I have been interested in or curious about, but never quite had the nerve or time to try......with one of the first being social media ! 

Having avoided this like the plague for so long, I was encouraged by Grief Recovery to  create a profile & whilst I just watched to begin with, I have since jumped in with both feet. This set me thinking about my journey & documenting it on a blog, but what to call it ? Initially I was stumped for a name......but having asked the question once, the word “scratch” came into my mind as if from nowhere & the more I thought about it, the more it seemed to fit with the range of thoughts I was having. 

So I started writing down any thoughts & phrases that came to mind as well as me looking in the dictionary to see what definitions I could find & this was the result, with some thoughts & a few questions.....

• "Scratch the surface to see what lies beneath" so what might be the real story you are keeping it hidden from view & why ?
• Making your mark like creating a blog which is making a virtual or even temporary mark.
• "Starting out from scratch" recording what is it like to start something new & you have never done before….
• "Having an itch that needs to be scratched" when something irritates or in my case, fascinates you so much you keep going until "relief" comes & the annoyance or novelty subsides.
• A human behaviour performed regularly & often without thinking. something which may be automatic, but not necessarily correct, may be you are scratching for a reason you are not acknowledging ? 
• To erase something & may be scratch it from existence....... ? This may be anything that no longer is correct, relevant or serves you......so why keep it ?

Whilst the initial posts I create are likely to focus & relate to my own experiences so that I can start to appreciate how far I have come, I've no doubt I will be sharing other stories & influences that I like & feel create a more interesting & diverse mix of things to read. 

In closing, I would like to invite you to join me for part or all of my journey which is really a "voyage of discovery", because I have no idea where it will lead ! So if you have time or may be another itch to scratch, I hope you will return to share it with me ? 💗